In an interview with the New York Times, two-time national champion Gracie Gold discussed her mental health issues in greater detail than she had in the past.
“I was suicidal for months,” she told the Times. “If I had just continued the way I was in Detroit, I’d probably be dead.”
She lived in Detroit for several months following her split with California-based coach Frank Carroll in Jan. 2017.
Gold said there were periods of time where she would sleep the entire day, then stay up for three days straight. She covered the mirrors in her Detroit-area apartment because she didn’t want to look at herself.
Gold, a 2014 Olympian, had said in Sept. 2017 that she was seeking treatment for depression, anxiety and disordered eating. She skipped the entire 2018 Olympic season.
She had discussed some of the details of what she called a “mental health crisis” in a since-deleted video interview from Oct. 2018. The Times report pinpoints her up and down weight gains and losses, the length of time she spent in an Arizona rehabilitation center, and familial strains.
After 22 months out of competition, Gold, 23, returned at Grand Prix Russia in Nov. 2018. She withdrew after a disastrous short program, but vowed at that time to be ready for the U.S. Championships in Detroit.
Just over two weeks ago, Gold withdrew from nationals to give herself more time to prepare for next season and, eventually, to try to make the team for the 2022 Winter Olympics in Beijing